Monday, May 23, 2011

To The 16 Year Old CL

Inspired by Boss Stewie and Ping Ping

Dear 16 Year Old Me,

You should know that this is the year when you will finally get to wear the red tie and skirt you've been yearning for.
The main reason is because you never liked your blue pinafore as it isn't the nice greenish blue Kimnovak pinafore which a lot of your other friends are wearing and your mom will normally just sew again the bottom of your pinafore to make it longer as you grow taller.
When you finally get appointed as a prefect, you will execute your duties well even if it means having more foes in your class who dislike you especially when you ask them to lower down their voices.

On top of that, a lot of people will misunderstand you for being a strict yet cruel prefect because apparently your 555 notebook has the most number of delinquents (with 3 quarter of them being the latecomers) among other prefects.
What to do, your senior prefects demand that you and your other peers should have more names written in that book because they don't believe that we don't catch anyone disobeying school rules.
So yes, somebody in your sister's class will eventually vote you as the "Don't play-play prefect" or something of that sort during your graduation dinner in the following year because of that....but you won't win it anyway!

This year, you will become closer to a friend, a friend whom you didn't get to know that well before even though you were in the same patrol last year.
She will be in the same class as you because initially you both are planning to take the IT subject but in the end, you both will drop it and eventually sit together in the class.
Who would have known, in Form 5, you both will be inseparable, sharing each other's deepest secrets, the tears and joy and right until now, after 8 years, you will still be in touch, calling each other buddies. :)
But damn it, she will be making twice the amount of money you're making now so you should stop dreaming about your prince charming who is apparently still in London and get a life instead!

Anyway, one of your regrets would be not having to maintain the close relationship you used to have with another 3 of your classmates.
These 3 people you knew since Form 1 are the people who you have always been close with, the people you too know can share your secrets with.
But deep down inside, you feel inferior.
Inferior because you know you're not as smart as them, inferior because they do not compare your results with them as theirs are better than yours and you eventually shun yourself away from them.
That, my-self, is a big mistake.
But you know they will always welcome you with open arms whenever you need them.
However, things get a little too late sometimes, so eventually, you can only wish you could turn back time and do things differently.
Although 8 years later, you will still be able to bond back with at least 2 of them, and hope to make things right again.
While another one is coming back next CNY!

This year will also mark the first time you have your puppy love(s) (although you will think that it's true love).
This guy was nice to you the year before during a camp and you will be very happy and excited when he asks you to be his gf although you know you might hurt another friend's feeling.
You feel really bad, because you have known your friend since elementary school and this will cause both of you to stop talking for quite some time. :(
It isn't your intention to hurt her at all, hopefully she knows that.
But heck, after 2 weeks of the so-called 'relationship', you get dumped because apparently that guy wanted to further his studies elsewhere but he will eventually end up with another one of your friends. Talk about karma. Haha.
But you won't get angry with that friend because she's too cute to get mad at and who are we kidding, it's only 2 weeks, never even hold hand/kiss/hug...only eat together once or twice. Hahaha.

But you will cry so badly during your tuition, causing stares from other tuition mates but you will be thankful that you have your new found close friend to console you when you need her the most.
And not to mention, you will feel stupid for being so emotional because half a year later, you will be grateful for being dumped.
And so, life goes on....

When you're 16, you will be able to buy your very first mobile phone with the money you earn from being a part-timer.
You will start playing miss-calls because somehow a lot of people like to waste their phone's battery life and you will be tempted to do the same.
Yes, very silly indeed.
But one fine day, you will do something that you'll be proud of for probably the rest of your life: You miss call him, innocently because he is one of the few people who has mobile phone at that time.
He's a very straight forward yet curious boy at that time so he calls back without knowing that you are just playing 'miss-calls'.
Then in January next year, he'll ask you (or rather his friend will do the deed) THE question.
And your answer to his question will be the most brilliant answer you have ever answered in your life thus far.

Oh and you will get a pathetic 4B for your moral in SPM thanks to your moral teacher, Sugus who caused most of your friends to get their SPM results ugly as well. Hmmph!

Then the rest will be history which you will be jotting down in here.... :D

24 year old you.

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